You know, it's funny how people react to me when I tell them that I'm confused when it comes to religion. They ask, "what religion are?" I honestly tell them, "I don't know." Then they ask something along the lines of, "Do you believe in God?" At this point the kinda start taking steps back and I tell them, "Not the so called loving God that's in the Bible." And in the end, I really don't know what I am between Atheist, Agnostic, or Deist. But in the end, they look at me like a murderer. I bet if I were a murderer turned religious they'd accept me.

In today's world, especially how American culture is, nearly everything is God driven. Win the lotto, God did it; crash and live, God did it; get property rights in a divorce settlement, God did it. That's selfish to think like that, what about the people who didn't win? What about if you were in a multi-car crash and other people died? What about the ex wife you are leaving with 3 kids without a home? If that is the case then God has favorites. That isn't a godly thing is it? I don't think so :)

When a victim of a crime need faith and religion to turn to, they are turned away from the murmers they unfortunatly hear. I have experienced this myself. A crime happened to a close person of mine. Who's fault was it really? The victim in this case. I have no idea how a victim of a crime can be at fault. But you know what a pastor said? "Maybe God let this happen to teach you a lesson to believe in Him." You know what happened? An aggravated sexual assault, a guy raped a close girl to me. How the hell is that a lesson!?

It is a shame that people who have no freedom to choose a president and his voice to vote is shut down for a past felony to say things like that. But yet this pastor is a God person.... See where I'm getting at? And that's another reason why I hate religion, it makes me pissed off because religion is supposed to help you in times of need and support you in those times. Religion isn't supposed to blame you. I do know that not all religions are like that, not all pastors are like that. But people who are supposed to be inspired by God aren't supposed to act so devilish.

There is some good news in this all though, people who have religion do have something to look forward to in life (heaven.) I've released my anger for now :) I'm off to wonder about in my thoughts. Happy holidays!